***** Mature Content, Abuse, Sexual Situations, Adult Situations, Strong Language *****
I know I’m twisted. Growing up in a perfectly well-adjusted home, I don’t really have an excuse. But no matter… I realize how messed up I am. And therapy can only do so much.
I pushed my boyfriend to violence, a violence he couldn't control. Sickly, I almost liked it. So I pushed him more. Before long, the pain outweighed the pleasure and the loss I sustained shattered me. So I ran. I’m now a bit shell-shocked harboring a lot of guilt. My boyfriend is now my ex and wants revenge. He wants me to pay for turning him into the monster he’s become. And I still have a deviant yearning that I don’t understand. My own monster inside… my own demon to battle.
I can’t get close to anyone. I can’t give in and scratch that itch. I can’t wreck someone else.
And now there is Kian… my rescuer on a dark, painful night. He sees through my pretense. He tries to pull me from my frightened isolation, to keep me from becoming a victim. He forces me to face my warped desires and shows me that pain doesn’t really have to truly hurt.
I loved this book...loved. It is the epitome of what the love of a good man can do.
Brynn spoke to me..deeply. She is an amazing example of where a woman's head is after leaving an abusive relationship. The mess that jumbles around, the lies they still believe, and the fight to rise up and be a Survivor and not a victim.
The story opens with Brynn trying to stay under the radar as she tries to reclaim her life. Finally finding the strength to get away from an abusive situation. Her story will break your heart..and yet you find yourself cheering her on as she navigates through trying to become whole.
When a chance encounter introduces her to Kian, she begins to realize that her life will never be the same. And that fate has a way of stepping in, when you least expect it, and making all the wrongs in your life right.
Kian.. oh my .. Strong, Alpha, Patient, Delicious... he is one of my new favorite book boyfriends. His love for Brynn was unbelievable. His understanding of her needs and wants, plus his willingness to give her the space she needed made him the perfect dominant. And no matter how much Brynn tries to push him away, or top from the bottom, Kian rises above and grabs control, not only of her, but the situation.
When Kian realizes that Brynn has a masochist need, he is more than willing to provide her with what she needs. And the things he brings to the bedroom will leave you panting. An expert in rope bondage, some of the sex scenes will leave you with the need to put your head in your freezer to cool off... and as the story progresses and trust is built, you get to witness a love bloom and thrive in a controlled and safe environment that Kian works tirelessly to provide for Brynn. And he effortlessly rises above all the crazy that she throws his way. Through all the bumps, the trials, and the situations, Kian stays steady and steadfast. You will LOVE him.
*warning* This book may not be for everybody. There is explicate abuse scenes. But this book is real, the authors ability to crawl into the mindset of an abused woman and bring to life her thoughts and self loathing are so close to home it is unbelievable.
Sibylla Matilde grew up in the mountain valleys of Southwest Montana exploring the dusty Old West gold country on the back of a horse. She attended a two-room schoolhouse beginning in 1st grade & had the same teacher until she changed schools after 7th. Beginning at about age 12, Sibylla discovered historical romance, feeding off of work of Jude Deveraux & Lisa Kleypas. She loves a book that can make the reader run the gamut of emotions, from the sweet glow of new love to gut-wrenching heartache. She is a true romantic & always has stories floating around in her head, living in a fantasyland until she writes them down to free them.
Music is her emotional trigger. Growing up with a Wagnarian-loving mother, Sibylla was raised to treasure music that digs deep into the psyche, drawing out elation, sorrow, grief, desire. The soundtrack to her life includes many genres spanning centuries. She looooooooves Thirty Seconds to Mars (rather obsessively, actually... but, really, how can you NOT be crazy about this guy!? Jared Leto. Shhh. ) & pimps them out to all her friends through Spotify. She also delights in Met Opera HD broadcasts at her local movie theater & hopes (listening Met?) to someday see Diana Damrau reprise her role as Mozart’s Queen of the Night in Die Zauberflöte.
Sibylla lives with her husband and hero who saved her from her own calamitous, young-adult self. He makes her laugh daily, even when things are tough. He's proved to her that love really can heal a shattered soul. In 18 years, they have never had a fight, although argue regularly with their two teenage kids who have, unfortunately, inherited their father’s quick wit (unfortunate as it is a quick wit that Sibylla, herself, definitely does not possess – there is a reason she is a writer & not a stand-up comedian). They live a quiet life with their two weird little rescued Chiweenies. Wait… teenagers & little yap-dogs? OK, maybe not so quiet.
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